Archival pigment prints, 15″ x 22″, 2010
For this project, I created my own Rorschach inkblots to illustrate my confusion and uncertainty concerning my identity and my place in the world. In psychology, Rorschach inkblots were used to help diagnose mental and emotional disorders in people depending on a patient’s interpretation of the shape, color, and contrast of the blots. I created inkblots and overlayed images that reference stereotypical aspects of identity that I am reluctant to accept, especially in terms of ethnicity, nationality, religion, and gender.
Throughout my life, I’ve been told by others that i had to do certain things or act a certain way to be a good Hawaiian, American, Catholic, and woman. As a Hawaiian, I ought know how to surf and dance hula. As an American, I ought know the pledge of allegiance by heart. As a Catholic, I ought go to church every sunday. As a woman, I ought know how to cook and clean well. I founded it funniest (and most stressful) when someone told me to “just be youself,” for who am I if not Hawaiian, American, Catholic, or a woman?